Nunc Scio Quod Sit Amor by thedarkking, literature
Literature
Nunc Scio Quod Sit Amor
Love –
One single word, encapsulating so much.
Have I known it myself?
A sore subject to touch
Upon. I've known lust; hot physical desire.
Is that love?
If laying in bed is love, then love is a liar.
I've known affection,
Deep care, loyalty and friendship.
Is that love?
Of a kind; but not this current eclipse.
All thoughts centred on one face,
One pair of lips, of eyes,
One soft voice, one taste.
Utter calm for me; soft cries
Of happiness. Asleep
By your side, cradled,
Is this the harvest I reap?
A sky pure sable
Turned to an unreal royal blue,
A dream-like state – thanks to you.
Your mere breath and existence thrills me
As through a glass darkly…
Arms, jutting out crazily like modern art,
Shattered, laying across the duckboard wall,
Mouth gaping stupidly, stunned eyes a passionate red,
A stench that turns the stomach, a gaze that cuts the heart.
This hill in Gilboa – O! My beloved Saul,
A pathetic, wasteful, pointless dead.
A card letter slips out of his pocket –
"Papa, comme howme soon!!!"
A cold death creeps into the chest.
He'll be home soon, poppet.
The suns drops, a sulphur flare, and the moon
Rises, glows, seems to cure and bless.
Makes that shattered face a commedia mask,
Ruby painted eyeholes, stretched ivory face,
A manic grin on this
There is honesty in nakedness.
When I see that slim frame
Clothed in dappled sunlight
Shining through drawn curtains,
Nothing to hide,
I know: this moment, this day, this life,
Is true.
In this Sheol of wire and brick,
The dead have no voice.
I speak for them!
The main ingredient
In an abomination.
I speak for them!
Cursed, abused, chased,
Imprisoned, tortured, murdered.
I speak for them!
A child's shoe, fits between finger and thumb,
An endless colossus of human hair for weaving:
The last, dumb mouths they have.
I speak for them!
At this "Golgotha of modern times",
I lay me down and weep
At such hope, such happiness, such innocence…
Extinguished.
Let the wire speak for me,
Let justice return.
Once a fire, hot as Hell, burning all in its path;
That golden hair, that sunshine smile, that waterfall laugh.
Love in its youth has no rival in beauty,
Yet now all voices are muted,
And dead eyes stare out at the world,
Skin fades to the colour of bleached pearls.
One lives again; the other fades to dusk,
A funereal marcher scented with musk.
Love in its death is magnificently tragic,
Not the loss of some emotional gadget,
But the end of all that is holy in mankind,
An equivalency of Satan, get thee behind.
And though I rise again, and find me a Turtledove,
Birth and nurse a stronger, truer love,
There will always be that sull
Sullen steps down stony stairs,
And I open the doors – fresh air
Floods in like Noah.
I say it, then again, this time slower:
This is paradise.
Step out onto scorched grass,
Ignore jet engines and their blast.
Feel cool ground underneath,
Taste the wind on my teeth –
This is paradise.
I spent such a long time weeping.
Then the world turned, and, after sleeping,
I woke, and now I realize: I've made my choice.
And that's why I know, when I hear your voice,
This is paradise.
There are, I think, three elements to what man calls "love": physical, spiritual and mental.
PHYSICAL
By physical, I mean lust, physical desire; without this, there are very few reasons except desperation to be with someone. I know many females I connect with on both a mental and spiritual level, but have never considered in a relationship sense.
SPIRITUAL
By spiritual, I mean the ability to "get along" with someone; I suppose this has a lot to do with instinct and hormones. One needs to be able to stand the company of someone to "love" them, I think. However mentally engaging and physically attractive someone is, if you just plain don't
Come sleep, come and raise me,
Come peace, come and daze me,
Come rest, come and encase me,
Come darkness, come and take me,
Come life, come and forsake me,
Come death, come and remake me.
Oh brother, I got a tale to tell,
Of stomach cramps, vomiting and anti-acid hell,
I'll tell you for why, and you won't be surprised,
It was over a girl, with blue sparkling eyes.
Everytime I see her, my eyes start to tear,
And my stomach, it burns, with a pain born from fear,
Primal energy flows through the air,
And I'm stuck in the headlights like a poor little deer.
Oh brother, I got a tale to tell, one with bells and whistles,
But it's too strong for words, and too full of pain,
So I'll just tell you it stings like green thistles,
And it damps me like warm summer rain.
It's been so long since we last talked rather than just spoke,
So long since we last listened rather than just heard,
Too long, too long since we last showed our joy,
God, stop us arguing, God, let us be spared.
The emptiness between us is growing,
The darkness inside me is eating me alive,
Remember how it used to be, at the start,
When our friendship used to thrive?
(chorus)
How can something grown so dark have been so bright?
How can something now so wrong have been so right?
Why can't we decide what we want, what we need?
Why can't we decide who we want, who we need?
How can this be worth it all?
I guess I'm too intense, and
1. The lesson I have learned, after sixteen years of walking blindly into my own misery; a lesson learnt from hard experience, from too many mistakes; a lesson learnt that I would rather I had not had to learn, not this way: give of yourself with no regrets. Give of yourself freely, totally, utterly, and do not feel remorse for it. Give your time, give your love, give your life. Be generous.
2. Do not wail at the heavens; do not question your own existence, however much you are tempted. Shoulder the burden of your life proudly, defiantly. If there is a God, or Gods, they would surely prefer this; if not, do it for your own pride, to prove ot
To watch rain fall is a revelation.
Drops of divinity splatter against mankind's
Worst excesses, reminding us we are not untouchable.
But it does not disturb those deep in conversation;
This should tell us something, that life is bitter only when
We taste the rinds of greed and hatred, destroying all that's good.
Looking out of the window as
The holy water falls from the sky
Cleansing the tainted concrete,
It reminds us there are forces beyond humanitas,
Beyond, into deios. The ignoble lie
That we are the highest is not, never will be, complete.
Why? Because He yet reminds us
That all our works are nothing without Him.
Without
There was once a time when all was dark,
But now everything is light.
Once I couldn't see through the floom,
But baby, you gave me the power of sight.
(CHORUS)
The stars can fall, but I'll love you,
The planets may collide, but I'll love you,
The world might end, but I'll love you,
I swear baby, we'll make it through.
I didn't used to know anything, didn't know happiness
Didn't know whether outside it was moon or sun,
Didn't know what I wanted.
But now baby, I know you're the one.
(CHORUS)
And if the sun were to set in one final blaze of flame,
There's no doubt who I'd love, or want to be with, too.
"Rosettes of fire" would ga
Be All My Sins Remembered by thedarkking, literature
Literature
Be All My Sins Remembered
The penalty's paid, the sin's repented,
The word's been broken and I've relented,
It's time to leave and pass through the gate,
Escape this hell, escape this hate.
(CHORUS)
I can't see tonight, I can't breathe,
All I can think of one last clinch with you,
But I'm afraid it's time to leave,
Because you've destroyed me with your point-of-view.
And now the hope is diving away,
Leaving me behind whilst fooling you,
Trick me, treat me, just don't leave me, please stay,
I am cold and I am blind, and I am being left behind.
(CHORUS)
You're the only person who's ever made me calm,
And now you've left me in the storm,
How can I contin
Not what is, but what was, and not what will be, but what can be,
These are the ways we must proceed with the life buffeted around us
By the eddies of a river passing towards an eternal sea of gold.
Spring approaches us, my dear, like a young stag,
Antlers aloft glinting in the sun; and spring is also a time of rebirth,
Where what has died in winter comes back into defiant life.
Pain and joy, two intertwined strands in an existence that,
Where joy is, pain is by necessity, and where pain is,
The ghost of joy remains, mocking us with its dance.
And you, my nymph, who led me to a cool stream,
Is this the wintry myth you, at this fixed
In this Sheol of wire and brick,
The dead have no voice.
I speak for them!
The main ingredient
In an abomination.
I speak for them!
Cursed, abused, chased,
Imprisoned, tortured, murdered.
I speak for them!
A child's shoe, fits between finger and thumb,
An endless colossus of human hair for weaving:
The last, dumb mouths they have.
I speak for them!
At this "Golgotha of modern times",
I lay me down and weep
At such hope, such happiness, such innocence…
Extinguished.
Let the wire speak for me,
Let justice return.
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5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
8. an interesting fact about you:
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PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
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3. put this in your journal so i can tell you what i think of you.
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on my Dev whoring:
Kerry says:
God, we know you're a whore you can't keep it in your pants
Comte de la Framboise - duckluff says:
*swings his dev around*
Comte de la Framboise - duckluff says:
*hits kerry in the face with it*
Kerry says:
excuse you
Comte de la Framboise - duckluff says:
my dev is going everywhere!
Wow, I've finally lost it. In other news, have bought a cool print item in coaster form which shall be shared, hopefully.
Well, finally left my bedroom at 5pm, go on MSN, fairly soon friend I argued with on Wednesday shows up and starts having a go at me, saying some utterly ridiculous things. Basically told him to fuck off in the end. Duck also got ikey. Eh.
God I hate some people. Anyway, got dinner in about 20 minutes at friend's, that should be good. I am very down. =/
And from which Earth, and Grave, and Dust, the Lord will raise me up I trust...
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^_^;; I never do chain letters, but oh well, this is a one off. =3